Guess what is happening this month?
A LOT.
Baby turns 6 months old, dad turns 63, first day of fall, my last doctor's appointment for the military...and I am sure a lot of other important things, those are just what stuck out in my min
d. Football has already started up and is a good reason for NCAA (F) to be a bookmarked page and on iGoogle. Mizzou is my #1 team right now, they are doing much better than I expected! I have never watched much college football until this year. There are just so many teams, I get confused. I like to actually know my players, coaches and teams and with so many to choose from it seems so impersonal...But I thought I'd give it a try since NFL is kinda pissing me off right now. So GO TIGERS!
Ohhh speaking of Google...GOOGLE CHROME!!!!!! I have just recently gone to google and googled Google Chrome. It is currently downloading now and I am so excited I could pee. I love Google... You really can put the ANYTHING in that search bar and you will get something like "Results 1 - 18 of about 36,500,000 for i heart google. (0.12 seconds) ". S
imply stunning.Now almost as much as I love google, I love fall. The September Equinox brings so much joy to my life. It i
s a time for lovers of all seasons to enjoy. The beginning can still be rather warm, with the crisp cool nights. The plant life is still abundant before going into it's dormant winter state. And in between, is the glorious sight of "the changing leaves". Growing up in Missouri, there was a large window in my bedroom. It faced woods, huge, beautiful woods. Most of where we lived was surrounded by woods and now out here in Utah, you can go up a canyon and see the changes and it is a breathtaking sigh
t. You can just smell the difference in the air. There is a bit of smokey bite to it and a slight chill, but all the more reasons to break out the autumn wardrobe! What could be more comfortable than jeans, a long sleeved shirt, pumas and a hoodie just in case?! Fall means beautiful scenery, back to school (or just the back to school clothes on sale if you are not in school, haha), saving money on AC, bon fires, hot chocolate, football games, Thanksgiving, hot soups...it is just one of my absolute favorite times of year!
These past few weeks have been some of very deep introspection. Brought on by perhaps some stress related circumstances, or maybe boredom...or more importantly maybe even some maturity. But my question still remains unanswered...When do you decide whether other people's choices in life are bad and constant enough that you have to cut your ties with them because they influence you in an adverse way?Now this could be trying to persuade you to do something against your personal beliefs or morals or just constantly involving you in their drama. But is this circumstantial? Does it depend upon your personal strength and will power? And if you do decide to abandon ship (aka relationships in question) is it a sign that you are not a true friend? Because obviously we all make bad choices or at times we even feel that we are innocent while we may be doing things that are making other people truly uncomfortable or worse, causing them pain. I know that I have made plenty of decisions that were wrong and at times, I brought people down with me. But I always knew that it was wrong and I always felt even worse knowing that I was hurting other people because of my selfish, prideful choices. But because of the wonderful friends and family that I do have, it has always been motivation to do better. But what do you do when people cannot see that? When they believe that horrible choices can be made and that those choices will only effect themselves? It seems as though a true friend (myself in question) would hold on and keep trying and put effort into being there for that person. But what if that friend's life, despite the fun and all the history, is constantly a source of stress, disappointment, and pain? When do you determine if staying in the relationship is a self destructive behavior? It seems as though there are enough things in this world to bring you down. There are enough reasons to feel insecure and depressed. Should a friendship really be one of them? Probably not. But like I said, on more than one occasion, I have chosen bad paths, but my friends and family stood by me and that brought me out of some of the darkest of times...But there again! Am I simply justifying my reasons for not wanting to give up on this friendship even though I know that it is hurting my life and if I let it, it could dissolve my character- while holding on to that glimmer of hope that change is in the future?! See, it is a moral dilemma. Basically:Being a True Friend: Where are the limits? How much is based on my ability to be this true friend? How long do you allow yourself to be taken advantage of and manipulated before it is just not worth it?That last question seems easy...shouldn't be too long before those red flags are waving, the sirens are sounding and you hit the trails. I just wish that it was that easy...
Baby turns 6 months old, dad turns 63, first day of fall, my last doctor's appointment for the military...and I am sure a lot of other important things, those are just what stuck out in my min
d. Football has already started up and is a good reason for NCAA (F) to be a bookmarked page and on iGoogle. Mizzou is my #1 team right now, they are doing much better than I expected! I have never watched much college football until this year. There are just so many teams, I get confused. I like to actually know my players, coaches and teams and with so many to choose from it seems so impersonal...But I thought I'd give it a try since NFL is kinda pissing me off right now. So GO TIGERS!
Ohhh speaking of Google...GOOGLE CHROME!!!!!! I have just recently gone to google and googled Google Chrome. It is currently downloading now and I am so excited I could pee. I love Google... You really can put the ANYTHING in that search bar and you will get something like "Results 1 - 18 of about 36,500,000 for i heart google. (0.12 seconds) ". Simply stunning.
s a time for lovers of all seasons to enjoy. The beginning can still be rather warm, with the crisp cool nights. The plant life is still abundant before going into it's dormant winter state. And in between, is the glorious sight of "the changing leaves". Growing up in Missouri, there was a large window in my bedroom. It faced woods, huge, beautiful woods. Most of where we lived was surrounded by woods and now out here in Utah, you can go up a canyon and see the changes and it is a breathtaking sigh
t. You can just smell the difference in the air. There is a bit of smokey bite to it and a slight chill, but all the more reasons to break out the autumn wardrobe! What could be more comfortable than jeans, a long sleeved shirt, pumas and a hoodie just in case?! Fall means beautiful scenery, back to school (or just the back to school clothes on sale if you are not in school, haha), saving money on AC, bon fires, hot chocolate, football games, Thanksgiving, hot soups...it is just one of my absolute favorite times of year!